Don't know when will it end and the thing called miracle will happen, not even confirmed that it does... but it will, its not a lie even if it is still don't let it to be hard for you .... millions of other are going through alot not with you but same like you ... People are getting sick of crying , faking smile , being hurt , but they are existing . No body will come to save you its you and only you which is enough for you and how will they understand the hell you are feeling bc's its in your mind try to connect it with others heart and feel the warmth of heaven . Find a reason to live more . Don't fake the promises which is really meant to be true which you made to yourself just Don't break for broken one . Hold your tears , endure pain , lie yourself ..... may be your soul will get fooled and live happily. Don't cut yourself, don't stop breathing , don't end your life. Delay your decision....give a chance. Be yoursel...